In a world where everybody lies

I haven't spoken to you in a while, sorry for being a bad friend, forgive me?

So I have a boyfriend now (Woowoop)

Nope I didn't see it coming either.

I wasn't in a great place when we met, I mean I wasn't in a super bad place like I have been I just wasn't in a particularly good place.

I wasn't looking for someone to fix me because I don't need fixing- I'm not broken, 

I am just a girl who has had a rough five years and noone will be able to change that (Unless they happen to have a time machine but I'm not sure if that would be very helpful).

I have issues trusting people for reasons you can read about in other blog posts.

There are very few people I would be able to call friends because my walls are up very high,

In world where everybody lies, it is hard to find someone to trust.

Whilst he hasn't changed the past, or fixed any problems, he's done something quite remarkable.

He broke down my walls, without me even realising,

and when he rebuilt my walls he didn't just make them stronger,

he put in windows so the sun could shine in.

Blog love/ Sorry for being lame

xxx

"Where's wally" of failed relationships

They say you don't know pain till you've walked a mile in another man shoes,

What they should really say is you don't know pain till you've walked barefoot for 20 minutes 

Holding my heels in one hand and my phone as a flash light in the other I found myself lost in my own thoughts.

The silence was deafening heightening any thoughts I had placed securely at the back of my mind,

Alcohol also had a role to play in this (Also a role in any spelling mistakes so I apologise).

I had drank a few drinks and whilst alcohol is normally a great party starter for most people, for me it let down the barriers for the waves of sadness I had been holding back and determined to not ruin the  night for anyone else I would take myself home.

Whilst misery may love company, I certainly do not want to add company to my misery.

The night was good don't get me wrong, amazing people and everything but as I looked onto the crowd of people I noticed a few familiar situations.

The one crying over the boy.

The argument between a couple.

The guy being strung along by a girl.

Almost like a "Where's wally" of failed relationships.

As I tried to explain to someone as a victim of heartbreak, I'll explain it to you also...

People are horrible.

They are, They really are,

People are selfish and nasty,

and I'll bet the person you're crying over doesn't even give a damn

(Tough love right there)

BUT all it's going to take is one person

One person to treat you half as well as they did,

To realise that they really weren't all that,

There are nice people out there but believe me I've kissed my fair share of frogs.

You know what it is worth it.

Every single heart break,

Every single confidence blow caused by a selfish being,

was worth it for the feeling I have now,

The feeling of being wanted,

The feeling of being incredibly happy by another,

I guess what I'm trying to say is whatever horrible experience you've had finding love or any relationship you're currently in where you think this isn't right,

There is so much better out there, you just have to have faith.

Blog love

xxx