I think I almost got raped

I had an experience last night which unfortunately is common but it shouldn't be.

Still in shock over the situation it was only when I got home and messaged my best friend did it suddenly becomes real.

"I think I almost got raped"

Still looking down at the bruises on my legs and arms it all seems surreal, like it was just a bad dream.

I was sober.

I was wearing jeans and a t=shirt.

I was on a date.

The worst date of my life.

One I'll try but won't forget.

Maybe I shouldn't have gone round his house.

He was still basically a stranger.

But he didn't feel like a stranger to me.

I'd met him before and we'd become good friends, at least I thought we were.

We sat on the sofa in the lounge, the curtains still open looking onto a busy street.

The TV was on and we just sat there talking.

Then out of the blue he kissed me. My first kiss in a while.

It wasn't romantic. It was forceful.

Next thing I knew I was being dragged to the floor.

Held down.

I tried to push him away but he ignored me.

I told him to stop.

"Ah babe don't be like that"

That was his response as he then carried on.

I finally managed to get away when he couldn't undo my jeans and hold me down at the same time.

When I got home I cried. I cried my pathetic little heart out.

I just felt so abused. So broken.

I still do.

I don't know the real point of this blog.

I could tell you learn from my lesson.

But this wasn't my fault.

And what's worse is even if I wanted to press charges there would be no point. 

Many rape cases with evidence don't go to court so an almost rape case is hardly going to get much support.

It's a sick world we live in where some people think it is acceptable to do this.

And then have no idea or don't even care about the consequences.

He'll probably tell his friends I'm a "frigid bitch"

I'll tell my friends the truth

he tried to rape me.