I can't see the surface anymore

I have experienced a major depressive episode;

I have been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder;

I have been through heart break;

I have watched my sister die;

I have stood up and spoke at her funeral;

I have been in an emotionally abusive relationship;

and a few weeks ago I was a victim of a serious sexual assault.

It is not that the last hit was harder than the rest, more that the combination of blows is too much to handle.

I think that's understandable,

It's like being underwater, you can see the surface but every time you start to get close something pulls you deeper underwater.

I can't see the surface any more,

I now have a choice, I can stay in this darkness or I can fight my way back into the light.





I choose the latter.